Hello friends and readers,
it is time to write the newest of my own successes and share it with you, so you know that sometimes things happen to pull us into the right direction.
Well, you know fom my past blog enteries that I was planing to go back to the Americas, that my nutrition plan was funktioning excellent, my hair was growing again and I had so much energy to run even 10km in 7min/km.
Now I want to relate about my last experiences that was confusing at the first to me, but now it makes sense…
It was planed that I wanted to return to México City first, I had everything ready…I even gave up my appartment… and pum! It was a failure…I don´t want to explain the details, because they aren´t important (things happen, because they have to happen to pull you to the next level, it doesn´t matter how they happen)
One thing I have to share with you: One of the reasons it failed, it was that eventhough I lived over 14 years in México City they didn´t wanted to give me the Méxican Naturalization, it was very hurting to me, because I always keeped contact with the country, spoke for it, defended it, share its treasures and the most important: loved it with all my heart… so kind of feeled betrayed… and the excuse was: well we won´t give it to you, because you left the Land as an adolecent when your father died… a very humanitarian excuse…but I know this is not the decision of the people, because I know how welcomed I am…
But, now I don´t care anymore, because searching at the same time the ruths I have from my mothers side, got the news that my mom registrated me as an Brazilian when I was a toddler and while she was making vacations in Brazil with me …so I was Brazilian all the time and with this American/Citizen of Turtle Island all the time without knowing it… and the best of all is I got so many information about my tribe the Tupinambás, that I am from a Brazilian Island called “The Island of Love” and so learned since then much history, it is so amazing, that the hurting way México treated me got an absolute blessing …
I feel so complete now
I even found the traditional general lenguage of my tribe, the NHEENGATU, I will start to learn soon
This experiences brought more concequenses:
In my panic of what will I do now? And I can tell you, fear is not a good companion of life… took some decisions that wasn´t healthy for me. I tried to find a job in my old profession I knew it wasn´t my destination, went back to the city to live with old old friends and also realized that my trip into the outside world changed me so much, made me so much grow, that I can only relate to very few of them now. On the other side, it shows me how much I grew in my personality and how many new friends I won.
I got a job in a very renomated company, with a very low payment and 8 boring hours of work, 4 hours of train, metro etc. and the worst I shouldn´t do anymore (administration as an employee), because my destination was another…. So what happend? I got sick again and that after 4 days!!!!!! My Burnout came back sooo fast!!! People, what we should´t do, we shouldn´t do!!!
Well of curse I stopped and went to the doctor and I´m happy I´m insured for loss of work and for my health. Thank you God! Because he told me that Im living in stress and this is the most destructive to my health, so my Burn Out came back and there are two tumors that have to be checked up in my leg and they don´t look healthy… also growing too fast. (Well I know from my family, that I have the tendencies to them)
I don´t want to put so much attencion to it, because where you put your attetion to, it becomes… so ignore and keep on doing my healthy way of life and I belive very very strong that they will disapear from alone. So concentrate on my healthy lifestyle, my body will do the work to get healthy.
In this time I loosed I think more than the half of my hair… I was very scared, but emotions don´t keep me from searching the ruths and truth of things…. so figure out that, my body is detoxicating and throwing out all the unhealthy hair that grew the past years when I was eating so unhealthy (still vegetarian, but not the healthy way) and saw there is growing new strong healthy hair.
For almost 7 months I finished the change to the Vegan nutrition that I started more than one year ago and like 5 months ago started to eat RawFood meals, alkaline and –whites… so my body is detoxicating and the best of all I´m feeling all the possitive changes…. no horrible Migrains, no strong PMS, getting a Marathon runner etc.
If you want to know how I´m staying healthy and my nutrition here are two blog enteries:
1. Latest Cancer Information: http://panambicollection.wordpress.com/2013/03/22/latest-cancer-information/
2. Vegetarianism and Veganism: http://panambicollection.wordpress.com/2012/05/22/vegetarianism-and-veganism/
So everything what is happening is happening for good
Even my Burnout pulled me into the right direction, now took the decision to open my DaWanda- Shop, where I will sell my knitted stuff. And you know from my old posts how much I love doing this, this is relaxing work for me, like yoga… so good for my soul! And I can live my creativity with all the full potential I have, what a wonderful life do I have… my God, thank you so much.
I remember when my project of opening a Dawanda Shop was rejected, when I asked for financial help at the beginning of this year and now I´m still opening it… no, I won´t give up my dreams
If you want to visit my shop, here is the link to it: Panambi Collection – Shop
This week I will finish all the missing issues for the layout and Impressum etc. and this week, I will start to upload the items I sell…and I have a very very cute surprise for Christmass and New Year… think you will love it …I do
When everything is ready, I will post it on Facebook and make some blog enteries.
And here is the link to my Facebook Page: https://www.facebook.com/PanambiCollection
It is amazing how God gives you some things in life to pull you to the right direction and America/Turtle Island is still smiling to me with all the heart, the time will come where I will send you some hugs & kisses from my tropical home
Love you all and I hope my experiences helps you to see everything as a hole picture to the way of your true destination and your true inner self. Remember, everything that happens it happens for good, we just have to see the good in life
Have a great Sunday everybody! Hugs & Kisses